Post by "Burned in Blood" Konrad Raab on Nov 25, 2020 20:50:11 GMT -5
OOC: So I've meant to do this for a few days, but never got around to it. It's just a small CD piece as a way for Konrad, discovering his anger without wearing a mask for the first time. It's practice Konrad had to do by himself before he shows it in front of Conners and whoever Konrad's PPV opponent will be without wearing a mask and how he reacts to it. Enjoy the piece I've done to build the next piece of the story of Konrad confronting his fears of anger. Although he won't show any signs of anger during his matches, until the PPV where it all finally comes out of him.
Tuesday 24th November. Chicago, Illinois.
As told by his therapist, there was one thing Konrad hadn't done since he started getting help to battle his fears of anger and what he was told to do on Friday, practising his anger in front of a mirror. He had to discover and learn about his anger before Friday because he still didn't know who he is as an angry man without a mask attached to him. He goes in the bathroom, looks at himself in the mirror. He closes his eyes, imagining everything mostly Dave Rydell as he's the only person he's fought so far that has said something to Konrad recently.
Although Konrad shakes his head on the idea of having to be angry in front of a mirror due to his inability to and that he knows as well, he'll get a big telling off from Conners about what he said about the lack of interest with the Chaos title; he'll get into much bigger trouble if he doesn't practice. Konrad opens his eyes and continuously looks at himself.
Konrad Raab: "I really don't want to be angry. I'm terrified of it still, but do I want another long monologue from Conners telling me to use it and asking me why I haven't practised? No, I don't. Let's try again and put more effort into it, Konrad."
Already, it was a bad start as there was no sense of a reason for Konrad to get angry, but he shakes his head a lot, shaking his body off from nerves and fear. Once again, he closes his eyes, thinking everything Dave Rydell has said to Konrad the last two matches of him stating that Dave's fought people bigger, badder, and better than you are and ever will be. Also stating Konrad should sit it out due to him not being any importance anymore comments crept in his mind. Beating a nobody like Ruby and beating someone new to the sport like Carlson Rex because Dave beat him in his debut match.
All of those things usually would trigger anyone, but it was a different story for Konrad that he'd rather feel upset and depressed than unleashing the beast in him. He slightly adjusts his fist at the mirror, breathing heavily, even if he drops to one knee, grunting and showing his teeth with a lot of shaking in his body. He yells from the top of his voice as he opens his eyes to look at his own anger.
Konrad Raab: "Is this who I am as an angry guy? A guy who falls on one knee and yelling from the top of his voice, having their fist out, grunting, breathing heavily and clenching my teeth together? What will my actions lead in the match with Dave if I get it?"
Konrad got up from the floor as he closes his eyes again, imagining every word Dave said the last two weeks to Konrad as he growls and he starts punching on the ground, non-stop and does suplex's, body slam and a spear to the towels he had. Konrad also had a smirk on his face, looking to kill. He viciously punches the towels and then has the towel in the lock that looks really hard, and Konrad says this.
Konrad Raab: "Tap you son of a bitch."
Suddenly, Konrad got up from the floor and turns to the mirror, placing his hand across his mouth, being shocked he swore that's not what he'd usually say to anyone and shook his head.
Konrad Raab: "I'm really that dangerous as I predicted when I get angry on wanting to break someone's body part? I would use the word bitch to a wrestler? I knew the mask I wore was the right representation of who I am as the angry Konrad. I need serious help if I intend to hurt people that way. I knew why I don't like being angry. I'm scared of my own shadow of my intent to hurt people. It's not a good sign if I act like that."
Konrad crouches on the floor, placing his hands across his face in total shame. Who knows how Conners would react if he saw Konrad do the things he did. There were tears on the floor, because of the danger he feels he causes to people and himself. Konrad gets up from the floor and goes in the bedroom to sit and think how this will come across not just on Friday to Conners, but how Dave would cope with Konrad's anger as he felt from looking in the mirror. Konrad went straight off to sleep for a couple of hours. He got up two in the afternoon to head straight to Chicago airport, getting his flight to Rochester, New York to see Alistaire in a hospital again and also, scheduled to be at a wrestling show in a different company.
Tuesday 24th November. Chicago, Illinois.
As told by his therapist, there was one thing Konrad hadn't done since he started getting help to battle his fears of anger and what he was told to do on Friday, practising his anger in front of a mirror. He had to discover and learn about his anger before Friday because he still didn't know who he is as an angry man without a mask attached to him. He goes in the bathroom, looks at himself in the mirror. He closes his eyes, imagining everything mostly Dave Rydell as he's the only person he's fought so far that has said something to Konrad recently.
Although Konrad shakes his head on the idea of having to be angry in front of a mirror due to his inability to and that he knows as well, he'll get a big telling off from Conners about what he said about the lack of interest with the Chaos title; he'll get into much bigger trouble if he doesn't practice. Konrad opens his eyes and continuously looks at himself.
Konrad Raab: "I really don't want to be angry. I'm terrified of it still, but do I want another long monologue from Conners telling me to use it and asking me why I haven't practised? No, I don't. Let's try again and put more effort into it, Konrad."
Already, it was a bad start as there was no sense of a reason for Konrad to get angry, but he shakes his head a lot, shaking his body off from nerves and fear. Once again, he closes his eyes, thinking everything Dave Rydell has said to Konrad the last two matches of him stating that Dave's fought people bigger, badder, and better than you are and ever will be. Also stating Konrad should sit it out due to him not being any importance anymore comments crept in his mind. Beating a nobody like Ruby and beating someone new to the sport like Carlson Rex because Dave beat him in his debut match.
All of those things usually would trigger anyone, but it was a different story for Konrad that he'd rather feel upset and depressed than unleashing the beast in him. He slightly adjusts his fist at the mirror, breathing heavily, even if he drops to one knee, grunting and showing his teeth with a lot of shaking in his body. He yells from the top of his voice as he opens his eyes to look at his own anger.
Konrad Raab: "Is this who I am as an angry guy? A guy who falls on one knee and yelling from the top of his voice, having their fist out, grunting, breathing heavily and clenching my teeth together? What will my actions lead in the match with Dave if I get it?"
Konrad got up from the floor as he closes his eyes again, imagining every word Dave said the last two weeks to Konrad as he growls and he starts punching on the ground, non-stop and does suplex's, body slam and a spear to the towels he had. Konrad also had a smirk on his face, looking to kill. He viciously punches the towels and then has the towel in the lock that looks really hard, and Konrad says this.
Konrad Raab: "Tap you son of a bitch."
Suddenly, Konrad got up from the floor and turns to the mirror, placing his hand across his mouth, being shocked he swore that's not what he'd usually say to anyone and shook his head.
Konrad Raab: "I'm really that dangerous as I predicted when I get angry on wanting to break someone's body part? I would use the word bitch to a wrestler? I knew the mask I wore was the right representation of who I am as the angry Konrad. I need serious help if I intend to hurt people that way. I knew why I don't like being angry. I'm scared of my own shadow of my intent to hurt people. It's not a good sign if I act like that."
Konrad crouches on the floor, placing his hands across his face in total shame. Who knows how Conners would react if he saw Konrad do the things he did. There were tears on the floor, because of the danger he feels he causes to people and himself. Konrad gets up from the floor and goes in the bedroom to sit and think how this will come across not just on Friday to Conners, but how Dave would cope with Konrad's anger as he felt from looking in the mirror. Konrad went straight off to sleep for a couple of hours. He got up two in the afternoon to head straight to Chicago airport, getting his flight to Rochester, New York to see Alistaire in a hospital again and also, scheduled to be at a wrestling show in a different company.