Post by EmbodimentOfFear on Dec 8, 2012 18:37:45 GMT -5
December 7
A weight is lifted. The Cooperative Champion passes to others, a burden now for them to bear, to fight over, to spite each other over. Cooperation, indeed.
I am relieved.
It shames me, as the loss of a championship should never bring relief. It should be something of pride, a representation of dignity and honor. Something of courage. There has been nothing courageous in these past few weeks.
I have questioned whether Monroe deserves to be a champion. Now I find I must ask the question of myself. Do I still have the drive, the passion, to do this?
In truth, I do not know.
Perhaps it is time for a new voice. Perhaps it is time for a new generation. Perhaps my time has passed.
What words do you choose when you have nothing left to say? What actions do you take when you are loathe to lift a finger, to do naught but stand idle while the world passes you by?
It has been twelve years. Four organizations. Five world championships, countless smaller championships. When is it enough?
I am tired.
There is a fire in Zane Scott that I haven't seen in myself in a long time. He has declared that he means to return dignity to the championship that lies dearest in my heart. If he is able to do so, what is there left for me to do?
Scott is not there yet. While he has held the championship for two months, he has yet to defend it, to mark it as his own. I had my own role to play in this, however, for he would have had to defend the title at Kobayashi Maru, had he and Stein not lost to us. It certainly would have been revealing as to the character of Zane Scott had he been in a position to defend against his partner. Still, there is no doubt in my mind that he tried to win the cooperative match. However, it still leaves his reign wanting.
He can change it at Horizons. A victory, a successful title defense on UGWC's grandest stage, and Zane Scott will truly have arrived as the Cross-Hemisphere Champion. A victory over me.
Then there is Monroe, a man who, despite treating the championship like trash when he held it, has spent his purse winning for an opportunity to get it back. Is he truly so vindictive as to want to defile it a second time, or does it hold value to him after all? Underneath the persona that the world sees, is there something more to Remi Monroe?
Is this truly a match I need to win? Can I win?
One thing is certain to me now. The winner, regardless of who it is, will not only be the Cross-Hemisphere Champion. They will have also fully justified their own very existence.
So tired...
A weight is lifted. The Cooperative Champion passes to others, a burden now for them to bear, to fight over, to spite each other over. Cooperation, indeed.
I am relieved.
It shames me, as the loss of a championship should never bring relief. It should be something of pride, a representation of dignity and honor. Something of courage. There has been nothing courageous in these past few weeks.
I have questioned whether Monroe deserves to be a champion. Now I find I must ask the question of myself. Do I still have the drive, the passion, to do this?
In truth, I do not know.
Perhaps it is time for a new voice. Perhaps it is time for a new generation. Perhaps my time has passed.
What words do you choose when you have nothing left to say? What actions do you take when you are loathe to lift a finger, to do naught but stand idle while the world passes you by?
It has been twelve years. Four organizations. Five world championships, countless smaller championships. When is it enough?
I am tired.
There is a fire in Zane Scott that I haven't seen in myself in a long time. He has declared that he means to return dignity to the championship that lies dearest in my heart. If he is able to do so, what is there left for me to do?
Scott is not there yet. While he has held the championship for two months, he has yet to defend it, to mark it as his own. I had my own role to play in this, however, for he would have had to defend the title at Kobayashi Maru, had he and Stein not lost to us. It certainly would have been revealing as to the character of Zane Scott had he been in a position to defend against his partner. Still, there is no doubt in my mind that he tried to win the cooperative match. However, it still leaves his reign wanting.
He can change it at Horizons. A victory, a successful title defense on UGWC's grandest stage, and Zane Scott will truly have arrived as the Cross-Hemisphere Champion. A victory over me.
Then there is Monroe, a man who, despite treating the championship like trash when he held it, has spent his purse winning for an opportunity to get it back. Is he truly so vindictive as to want to defile it a second time, or does it hold value to him after all? Underneath the persona that the world sees, is there something more to Remi Monroe?
Is this truly a match I need to win? Can I win?
One thing is certain to me now. The winner, regardless of who it is, will not only be the Cross-Hemisphere Champion. They will have also fully justified their own very existence.
So tired...