Post by "Burned in Blood" Konrad Raab on Feb 13, 2024 8:13:37 GMT -5
I had just finished wrestling against Ezra in a Chaos-style match and went back to my home. Edward had also returned from taking my two dogs, Frankie and Justin, out for a walk. We met at my Chicago home before we got a taxi to Chicago airport to fly back to Daytona Beach, Florida, as I had to be there by Wednesday. I know I have media stuff to do on Tuesday on top of things as well. As we got on my private plane, Edward had something on his mind; he knew something that I hadn't told him while sitting to wait to take off.
Edward: "What's the deal you've done you've not told me about?"
Konrad Raab: "What deal?"
Edward: "You know, the deal about you joining another company. I thought you were going to stay home and rest."
Konrad Raab: "Edward, relax, and I'll tell you about it. Thank you for taking my dogs for a walk; they needed it."
I always had a dog sitter to take care of them when I was away on my racing duties, and I sometimes took them to the races. I'm not this time because, on Wednesday, I'm spending Valentine's Day with my lady friend before qualifying for the Daytona 500 race. On Thursday, before the duel races, I will spend time with my lady friend's family to connect with them on a fishing trip that Jonathan Davenport taught me how to fish during dirt car races in December. Anyway, I waited for Edward to relax while Cameron knew about the deal, as I told him on Friday.
Konrad Raab: "I need to show evidence of my wrestling and behaviour improvement. I'm not going to give proof just by coming back to UGWC, wrestling on top of building a reputation again and fixing my behaviour. They'd still want evidence of that; I tried sitting at home doing nothing and returned once before, and it didn't work. So yes, it's true, I signed a deal with New Frontier Wrestling, but I believe being away from UGWC and focusing on myself in New Frontier Wrestling is the best way to do that."
Cameron: "Yeah, and I agree with this, to be honest, Edward. He'll still have his therapy sessions every week. Konrad needs to be in a wrestling company that doesn't know him very well, and the environment in UGWC is quite frankly far too toxic for Konrad to be around at the moment, even though Konrad himself admitted he caused it. Granted, he'll have to do the next two PPVs in UGWC, but he will temporarily leave after the next PPV. Plus, it would give him a chance to talk, something he doesn't feel comfortable doing in UGWC yet."
Edward: "Yeah, that makes total sense, and you both are right; Konrad isn't going to prove any evidence of sitting at home away from races and doing nothing. This deal is a very effective one, and UGWC wrestlers and staff can see the evidence of Konrad's behaviour improvement, gaining his reputation back and overall becoming a much better wrestler who will be talked about for his wrestling achievements and wins than his backstage activities and what he does off camera."
Konrad Raab: "Exactly right. If it takes me to wrestle in New Frontier Wrestling to improve a lot of myself and temporarily leave UGWC because of the toxicity I caused to die down for the entire roster to go back to how it was before my anger took over me, so be it, but it will benefit both parties. I'm not betraying UGWC; I want to win that Chaos title so badly, but at the same time, after everything I've said, if I win a title over in NFW, things will be a whole different story for UGWC to overcome everything I need to work on with my behaviour, my reputation, my wrestling motivation and most importantly, finally getting a wrestling title because last year was honestly the worst year for me."
It was when I didn't achieve anything and didn't count the Asylum Wrestling Society Heavyweight title either. I decided to leave the company as a champion because I was so frustrated with the company, making so many changes to be so inconsistent in renaming companies, renaming titles and giving up on it because the owner didn't know what he was doing. But this was my only solution since my return to UGWC was a disaster, and I didn't want to go through that again.
Konrad Raab: "I know and understand the New Frontier Wrestling roster will pinpoint my toxicity in UGWC, along with losses I had, and I need to find a way to cope with that, which is something I can't do at home either, but at the same time, I need to do this for me, and people need proof to see changes within me instead of returning to UGWC and seeing no evidence of improving myself. UGWC roster and staff need to see the evidence of it. Suppose they see the changes I made in NFW by wrestling my matches, gaining my rep back, and changing my behaviour on top of possibly winning titles there. In that case, I can be satisfied with my progress to return to UGWC in style without any toxicity backstage, off-camera activities, and winning matches again."
Edward: "I asked because I came across a rumour online stating you signed with New Frontier Wrestling. I'm glad it's true you have than someone lying about you again. I agree with this move; as you said, it will give you the confidence to speak again slowly."
Edward had a point: I lost my complete confidence in talking to my opponents directly because I couldn't trust myself without going overboard with my anger. I know the anger will still be an issue at this time when I start in NFW, but it will be a lot less at the end of it. That is something that New Frontier Wrestling can help me with, too, is talking again.
Konrad Raab: "No, I understand totally. The rumours aren't wrong this time; I have signed a contract with New Frontier Wrestling. I'm wrestling on their Tuesday Night Collision brand. Honestly, it might be better for me, in terms of schedule as well, even possibly being there to wrestle as a full-time NASCAR Cup Series driver, considering sometimes, I have to race on Mondays due to weather, and at times, there have been a few issues between NASCAR and UGWC with that and drivers have had to replace me to race on Mondays because of the clash with UGWC wrestling and NASCAR races. There are rumours the race may go on Monday because of the weather, and that would suck if I had to miss Daytona's five hundred race to wrestle Ragdoll."
Cameron: "Indeed. But I hope the weather all goes smoothly to plan. You need to nap after wrestling against Ezra, despite not having a good night's sleep the last few days, because you worry about reactions and what people say about you in UGWC when you walk into the arena. You need to be less concerned about them and focus on you."
Konrad Raab: "That's what New Frontier Wrestling is going to be about: focusing on myself, in addition to improving my behaviour, gaining back my reputation in wrestling, and winning matches with a momentum boost."
Cameron was right; honestly, I haven't had the best night of sleep the last few days because I was always worried about how the roster and staff would react to me each time I stepped in the UGWC ring, and the feeling was not good each time I stepped there. It was a point I wanted to wrestle and leave right away. I had no such issue with NASCAR races, though, as nearly everyone but a few drivers liked me over there, and I'm more confident talking to the NASCAR drivers. I closed my eyes until we arrived back at Daytona Beach airport, where we got a taxi back to my recently bought holiday apartment, and we all went into our own bedrooms and went to sleep.
Edward: "What's the deal you've done you've not told me about?"
Konrad Raab: "What deal?"
Edward: "You know, the deal about you joining another company. I thought you were going to stay home and rest."
Konrad Raab: "Edward, relax, and I'll tell you about it. Thank you for taking my dogs for a walk; they needed it."
I always had a dog sitter to take care of them when I was away on my racing duties, and I sometimes took them to the races. I'm not this time because, on Wednesday, I'm spending Valentine's Day with my lady friend before qualifying for the Daytona 500 race. On Thursday, before the duel races, I will spend time with my lady friend's family to connect with them on a fishing trip that Jonathan Davenport taught me how to fish during dirt car races in December. Anyway, I waited for Edward to relax while Cameron knew about the deal, as I told him on Friday.
Konrad Raab: "I need to show evidence of my wrestling and behaviour improvement. I'm not going to give proof just by coming back to UGWC, wrestling on top of building a reputation again and fixing my behaviour. They'd still want evidence of that; I tried sitting at home doing nothing and returned once before, and it didn't work. So yes, it's true, I signed a deal with New Frontier Wrestling, but I believe being away from UGWC and focusing on myself in New Frontier Wrestling is the best way to do that."
Cameron: "Yeah, and I agree with this, to be honest, Edward. He'll still have his therapy sessions every week. Konrad needs to be in a wrestling company that doesn't know him very well, and the environment in UGWC is quite frankly far too toxic for Konrad to be around at the moment, even though Konrad himself admitted he caused it. Granted, he'll have to do the next two PPVs in UGWC, but he will temporarily leave after the next PPV. Plus, it would give him a chance to talk, something he doesn't feel comfortable doing in UGWC yet."
Edward: "Yeah, that makes total sense, and you both are right; Konrad isn't going to prove any evidence of sitting at home away from races and doing nothing. This deal is a very effective one, and UGWC wrestlers and staff can see the evidence of Konrad's behaviour improvement, gaining his reputation back and overall becoming a much better wrestler who will be talked about for his wrestling achievements and wins than his backstage activities and what he does off camera."
Konrad Raab: "Exactly right. If it takes me to wrestle in New Frontier Wrestling to improve a lot of myself and temporarily leave UGWC because of the toxicity I caused to die down for the entire roster to go back to how it was before my anger took over me, so be it, but it will benefit both parties. I'm not betraying UGWC; I want to win that Chaos title so badly, but at the same time, after everything I've said, if I win a title over in NFW, things will be a whole different story for UGWC to overcome everything I need to work on with my behaviour, my reputation, my wrestling motivation and most importantly, finally getting a wrestling title because last year was honestly the worst year for me."
It was when I didn't achieve anything and didn't count the Asylum Wrestling Society Heavyweight title either. I decided to leave the company as a champion because I was so frustrated with the company, making so many changes to be so inconsistent in renaming companies, renaming titles and giving up on it because the owner didn't know what he was doing. But this was my only solution since my return to UGWC was a disaster, and I didn't want to go through that again.
Konrad Raab: "I know and understand the New Frontier Wrestling roster will pinpoint my toxicity in UGWC, along with losses I had, and I need to find a way to cope with that, which is something I can't do at home either, but at the same time, I need to do this for me, and people need proof to see changes within me instead of returning to UGWC and seeing no evidence of improving myself. UGWC roster and staff need to see the evidence of it. Suppose they see the changes I made in NFW by wrestling my matches, gaining my rep back, and changing my behaviour on top of possibly winning titles there. In that case, I can be satisfied with my progress to return to UGWC in style without any toxicity backstage, off-camera activities, and winning matches again."
Edward: "I asked because I came across a rumour online stating you signed with New Frontier Wrestling. I'm glad it's true you have than someone lying about you again. I agree with this move; as you said, it will give you the confidence to speak again slowly."
Edward had a point: I lost my complete confidence in talking to my opponents directly because I couldn't trust myself without going overboard with my anger. I know the anger will still be an issue at this time when I start in NFW, but it will be a lot less at the end of it. That is something that New Frontier Wrestling can help me with, too, is talking again.
Konrad Raab: "No, I understand totally. The rumours aren't wrong this time; I have signed a contract with New Frontier Wrestling. I'm wrestling on their Tuesday Night Collision brand. Honestly, it might be better for me, in terms of schedule as well, even possibly being there to wrestle as a full-time NASCAR Cup Series driver, considering sometimes, I have to race on Mondays due to weather, and at times, there have been a few issues between NASCAR and UGWC with that and drivers have had to replace me to race on Mondays because of the clash with UGWC wrestling and NASCAR races. There are rumours the race may go on Monday because of the weather, and that would suck if I had to miss Daytona's five hundred race to wrestle Ragdoll."
Cameron: "Indeed. But I hope the weather all goes smoothly to plan. You need to nap after wrestling against Ezra, despite not having a good night's sleep the last few days, because you worry about reactions and what people say about you in UGWC when you walk into the arena. You need to be less concerned about them and focus on you."
Konrad Raab: "That's what New Frontier Wrestling is going to be about: focusing on myself, in addition to improving my behaviour, gaining back my reputation in wrestling, and winning matches with a momentum boost."
Cameron was right; honestly, I haven't had the best night of sleep the last few days because I was always worried about how the roster and staff would react to me each time I stepped in the UGWC ring, and the feeling was not good each time I stepped there. It was a point I wanted to wrestle and leave right away. I had no such issue with NASCAR races, though, as nearly everyone but a few drivers liked me over there, and I'm more confident talking to the NASCAR drivers. I closed my eyes until we arrived back at Daytona Beach airport, where we got a taxi back to my recently bought holiday apartment, and we all went into our own bedrooms and went to sleep.
2020
